Every day I wake up and think to myself, what am I doing that matters to anyone? What do I do that REALLY matters?? Does anybody care?? I often find myself not having a solid answer, by my standards at least. Sure I may make some people laugh or I may make some people dance and forget their problems in the club and hopefully I inspire some people along the way but I never feel like I'm doing enough. In my mind I have this thought that the more I work, the more adequate I am, the more I matter... But am I missing life which essentially is the bigger picture. Am I missing time with my son, my wife, my family or is it my work that allows me to spend time with them because I can afford to take a trip or a day off while others have to work??
If I don't work my self to death I feel I'm doing a diservice to my family which I created and I'm leaving them with an unstable financial future.
Someone called me a superstar the other night & it got me to thinking. On one hand I could have taken that as a compliment that they considered my being recognized for the work that I do to be at a level of a superstar or because I'm on tv or on the radio, online, etc. What it did was get me to thinking "What is a superstar actually?" Is it infact someone that achieves great popularity and respect for their body of work??
Is that the only way someone can be considered a superstar??
I spend a great deal of my time working or thinking of work to the point I almost disconnect from what's around me which sometimes are the most important things, my family. To understand me now is to understand where I came from. I fortunately am part of the small group that came from absolutely nothing and made something out of my life and I think my worry of going back to food stamps and welfare gives me an insatiable appetite for success because I never I want my son to ever be apart of that world. You know I hear a lot of people say all they want for their children is to be happy but can happiness pay the bills or help you if you're hospitalized and quite frankly I never heard anyone tell me I can go on a trip for 4 to Disney for the price of happiness. Have goals for them. Have them set goals. When you achieve a goal it creates happiness. Knowing that you accomplished something you set out to do feels awesome!
In a quest to achieve success, those that truly understand what that means it can be easy to lose yourself and your purpose. You can get so caught up in making sure that the people you care about will be okay that you forget about yourself being okay or that they actually are not okay because your not there with them which is, to them, what really matters. Trust me, if anyone understands what it means to juggle the reality of paying the bills, spending time with your family and chasing your dream, I'm in the front of that line. Incidentally, I think I've gone so hard at chasing my dream that I passed it and its now chasing me...
Anyhow, what I'm trying to get at is discover the meaning in your life. Discover your meaning. Maybe what your doing isn't what you were meant to do and your forcing a circle into a square sort of speak. Everyone wants to be a superstar but tends to forget that Superstars are not just people that are on tv or on the radio, in magazines being hounded by the paparazzi, etc. A Superstar is a teacher that really cares about the student (I love teachers btw and think they are totally underpaid), a mother or father that spends quality time with their children. A student that studies to better themself. Someone that plants a tree, helps an elderly person across the road. I think you get my point. In a fast moving, technology driven "I want to be famous" world sometimes you need to just slow down and enjoy your life and enjoy the lives of others.
Read your kid a story tonight, call your relative that you haven't spoke to in awhile, take that risk and follow your dream, donate your time, help a neighbor.
Life moves pretty fast, if you don't get involved you might miss it...
Be involved with YOUR LIFE...
Be a Superstar!!!!!
Your friend,
Clinton
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